FOMO

 

FOMO–The fear of missing out. Some people will know exactly what I mean, and some people won’t. Imagine this: you’re home getting on with your day and decide to check people’s snapchat stories. You see your friends at a party without you. You might not even want to go to that party, but because they are there, you really want to go now. If you still don’t understand what I’m trying to say, check out this video by Buzzfeed here.

With social media ruling our lives, FOMO is inevitable. FOMO happened to me today. This whole weekend, the group chat with my three best friends was weirdly silent, but I went on with my life. Then this morning, I decided to check people’s updated snapchat stories. And suddenly, I saw each of their snapchat stories and noticed they were together in every picture. And it hit me… that FOMO. So acting like it wasn’t anything, I asked them where they were in the group chat, and they replied that they were at a lake house for the weekend. They were there with their families, and I couldn’t go because my family was not as close to their’s anymore. I know it wasn’t anyone’s fault, but it still hit home. What had they done without me? Did they talk about anything cool? Did they talk about me? What about our juicy late night conversations? Do they have memories I’ll never know about? Did they miss me? All these thoughts came rushing in my head. First I was angry, but then I was sad, then I was sad and angry. So I did what any crazed jealous person would do: I made it look like I was having a better time. I called up my other friends, like they were my rebounds after a break-up. We went out for lunch and I posted pictures on snapchat to document my fake happiness. After this whole shebang, I came home. I thought that I would feel better about myself, but I felt quite the opposite. I felt horrible for using my other friends, but I was even more angry with myself. Did I really need to base my happiness on others? The thing is, your friends have lives with and without you. You are not always going to be with them and they are not always going to be with you. You just have to accept that and be okay with being by yourself. It will suck, but everyone gets FOMO, so remember that you are not the only one.

First blog post

Hello world, my name is… I guess I should start by saying I am going to keep my identity anonymous. No I am not a monster, but I do like some mystery. Actually the truth is, I do not want any close friends or family reading my blogs. So it would be nice if you guys could keep this a secret. What inspired me to write this blog was a little bit of sadness and Sex and the City. Yes I know Sex and the City is an old show, but I finally started watching it and am now obsessed. Carrie Bradshaw, the main character writes a sex column. No this will not be a sex column, but the openness and truth in her column made me want to write one. How contradictory: I want to hide my feelings from the closest people in my life but want to share them with complete strangers? What has become of me?!!! Oh well, it’s too late now…